Monday, November 22, 2010

Are you a societal slave?

Unfortunately the social norms of the society in which we exist today
are quite bland I believe. There are so many people unhappy due to
these norms because they are stuck (or at least believe they are
stuck) in lifestyles they are not content with that lead to
depression, anxiety, obesity, cardiovascular disease, and all and all
an unhappy regretful life. Don't get me wrong, not everyone is unhappy
with these norms, but the majority they are whether they know it or
not.

When I graduated high school I had no idea where I wanted to go to
college or for what. What I really wanted to do was travel the world,
write poems, make art, explore cultures, and meet people of different
beliefs. This idea was completely out of societal norms, I was told if
I did this I would never go to college, I would never do anything
important with my life, my life would be a waste. So I went to
boarding school for a year to try and figure out where I wanted to go
to college and for what. After that year I still had no idea but I
came to college anyways because that was the acceptable social norm.
So here I am today, a senior in the health science major, my dad
having spent about $200,000 in education, and I still have no idea
what I want to do! I do know I want to write poems, travel the world,
meet new people, explore the mountains, learn about different
religions, make art, philosophy about life with strangers. Here I am
four years later with the same dreams I had five years ago and I am
finally on the brink of exploring them, almost free from this "college
norm." What did I get from it all, that's what I look too. I got a lot
of professors lecturing to me off a power point I had already read
through, a lot of expensive text books telling me things I already
knew or could have found out through self and world exploration. I GOT
A DEGREE! One I will never use, but people don't like to talk about
that.

I must say I go against societal norms a lot. I don't own a
television, I don't vote, and I am not afraid to express what I
believe. I will transcend the norm like the beat generation did, like
the Dharma Bums. I don't need politics and all their money and glory.
I don't need celebrities, or diamonds that people loose arms for. In
May I am getting out of here, cross country road tripping in search
for what I don't know, art, music, poetry, life, birds, trees,
silence, noise. I am looking for it all in a search for self,
something college couldn't give me. Something the college format essay
writing standards never gave me with all its bland simplicity. So here
my assignment is, whether it fills the fulfillment or just clear cuts
the norms take from it what you will.

Thank you college for letting me finally grasp the realization I had
years ago, that our society it plagued and I will not fall sick. I
will transcend the societal norms and do it with glory ignoring
judgments passed by those stuck in their bore. Set free at last and
okay with what I want and not what society wants of me. I will not be
another societal slave!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

You.

In days of gloom
In days of bloom
The stars will always matter.
Blue will always matter.
But who will always matter?

I hope,
Who-
Is you.

You and I in bloom
You and I in gloom
You and the stars will matter.
You and blue will matter.
But who are you?

Are you lost in time?
Believe in matter or mind?
A daylight dreamer?
Are you tempted to play your own fate?

In days of gloom
In days of bloom
The stars will always matter.
Blue will always matter.
You will always matter.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

OKAY!
This
is
me.

Who are you?

Who am I?
I wonder-

I am but a dreamer
Lost in thoughts of love
Lost in thoughts of truth.

And you-
Who are you?

You are but a soul
Tangled in yesterdays of tomorrow
Tangled in time.

Who are we?
We all wonder-

I am not you
And you not me
Yet me trudge together lost in this sea.

Monday, November 8, 2010

You I don't regret.

I put you on a list of goals.
Thing to conquer
Through my one chance at this life.

But I, I am not a wizard.
My wand only casts through work
I worked my best on you.

I wanted you to have a goal (it didn't have to be a long list as mine).
To conquer the day!
To make the slightest difference in this world.

Do I cross you off my list?
Is it wrong to want to fix you?
Have you completely lost it all?

You've been j a d e d
And so you've f a d e d
Away in a powdered white dust...

You were last on my list
But consuming the rest
Ten goals this journey I must conquest.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

There was a time
When the trees were big
Bumble bees in clear sight
Blades of grass rushing between the toes.

And now
The trees just don't seem so big
The bumble bees don't buzz so busy
Feet are clean no longer stained green.

Can I only go back there in my dreams?
Why does this have to be reality?
Life revolved around time
Crushing imagination and thoughts divine.

I'm stopping it all!
Cruel fate will have to wait
I'm in a blueberry field
With the tallest of all trees planted in the middle.

Me feet are all stained purple
Bluebirds chirping the timeless tune
Want me to wait here for you?
I can have the winds pick you up.

It won't be easy
To twist your mind
But what you might find
Is truth in flight and your dreams defined.